heavenlystarsgazer

2006-03-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

Everyday, we learnt new things.

Yesterday, i've tasted what it's like to fall in love.

Today, i've learnt what it's like to let go.

Yesterday, i've gotten a parent's complaint letter.

Today, i've gained experience.

Yesterday, i fall down and broke my leg.

Today, i've learnt to stand on both feet, once again.

Yesterday, i thought i can never be happy again.

Today, i've learnt that nothing is impossible.

Yesterday, i still hAte my job.

Today, i understand that's reality.

I am still a baby, learning to walk.

I've once fell heavily *bump!* onto the ground.

I've bled, cried n' understand thoroughly what it's like.

Y do we have so much patience with a child who's learning how to walk yet we have little patience with an adult who needs time to heal her soul?

Anyway, i shall just end this blog entry with a quote i totally lurvveee from huanlin (or henry?haha) :

When u go alllllll the way down,
there's only one last way to go.
And that is to go UP !!!

ajah ~ ajah fighting!

2006-02-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don t get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes

I m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh
everyday of my life
My heart can t possibly break
When it wasn t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better
than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don t get hurt

Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don t know how to let anyone else in

Because of you
I m ashamed of my life because it s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

2006-02-24T15:21:00.000+08:00

Came across these words in one of my frenster msgs todae:

Strange...
Just want you to know that happiness is always real.
Just that it is always balanced by sadness and
it is always the sadness that we tend to remember.

To me,
sadness..... just a passing thing.

Cheers!

whoeva you are,
thank you for brightening up my day for awhile!
=)

Came across this song by Ah-mei on the radio.
It totally matched my feel~
not exactly NICE when you first hear it.
Listen to its lyrics:

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长

刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人
不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍

我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的

我的决定是对的

p:s/
from today onwards,
i have to give myself lots n lots of love.
Somethings, you just can't wish for it.
You have to give yourself. . .
And being optimistic, being happie,
is a way of loving myself.
Earn back all the dignity dat i've lost along the way.
But i still believe...
happiness...

still an illusion.

2006-02-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

No better words than these lyrics can describe my feelings right now.......

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开
听着别人的对白
也许那些故事
可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱
是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音
仿佛诉说着相同悲哀

你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

p:s/
倘若有得选，相信没有人舍得将手放开。
好不容易放心地想去好好地爱，
只是，
再多的努力，
最后只有永无止境的伤害。
听着你疲倦得想放弃的声音，
看着自己落寞的倒影，
我决定了。
只好，
手放开。
你永远是我生命中一首最美丽的歌曲，
我不恨你。
只可惜，
无法拥有美好的结局。

一定要快乐，
必须要幸福。。。
祝福你，永远永远如我第一天见到的那个你一样，
那么的快乐。
那么的自在。

不舍得，但终于下定了决心说出了这两个字：
再见。。。

2006-02-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

i can't help it but need to share a scene that touched me last nite!

In case u think it's about ME........

FORGET IT!

ssshh......... won't tell u where i go...what i did...
it's all in my memory and in my private blog!
Sometg i won't share no no no kakaka =P

Okie here it goes...

i was having my dinner in this restaurant when an uncle in his early 50s suddenly popped up at the table beside me with a bouquet of roses in his hands.

BUT he was alone.

Being curious, the people around him (YESH and that includes this VERY KPO ME!) was lOoking at him and perhaps like me, pondering if he's here anticipating a blind date (In chinese we called it "相亲" since that was very popular way back his age.)

So i waited with him and was curious to see how his blind date lOoks like.

5mins gone.... the pOor man gulped down his 1st glass of iced water.

10mins............15mins............

*sigh* STILL NOBODY IN SIGHT.

the poor man walked out of the restaurant for a moment calling his date and i could see the waiters & waitresses around were like giving him that "HAHA so ke lian, your date fly ur plane" kinda sympathy look.

BUT

somehow, i believed his effort of waiting shall pay off.

AND IT DID.

aLmost 30 mins later, his date turned up.

I thought the guy would just scream at her, or perhaps put on a black face.
INSTEAD,
they were smiling happily and telling each other "Happy V-day!"

YES!

HE WAS JUST PLAIN HAPPY TO SEE HER AND ALL FRUSTRATION etc...

PUT ASIDE.
This, i thought, might be the magic to a workable relationship.

We don't waste time getting angry or pointing fingers at each other,
but rather, SPEND time understanding & accepting each other's faults.

This man was beaming with joy as he presented the lovely bouquet to his ...........

WIFE!
(omg, i didn't noe it until i heard the woman called him "hubby".)

i was so narrow-minded enough to forget that YES, there are plenty of old couples out there who celebrate important occasions like V-DAY as well!

Aww.........

Imagine my hubby married with ME--
Mdm "huang lian po" (by then i will be one i guess! with frizzy perm hair ,wrinkles and all *sighs!*) for 20 years and pops me with surprises on my Birthday, still remembers to give me roses on V-DAY......still loving me for who i am......

HOW GOOD WILL THAT BE! *grins*

for those who are still flustering over which V-DAY date to go out with, and loves to boast to the rest of the world:
"Its amazing that i could pick who i wanna go out with on V-DAY"

PLEASE!

it's time to reflect & to realise that happiness isn't about having many dates to go out with on V-DAY.

BUT RATHER,

U have that one special person in your life to spend this special occasion with.

GET IT? =)

2006-02-11T11:32:00.000+08:00

my friend S had just broken up with her boyfriend of two years.

Over?

Over a bottle of green tea that her bf has forgotten to buy for her.
Over the fact that the boyfriend's family background wasn't that "GOOD".

And then i came to realise,

that once a ger has a change of heart,
she can came up with a 1000 excuses just to get rid of you.

For Instance:

1. You have bad breathe
(Yar GREAT! Why Only tell me now?)
2. You stink.
(Same as above)
3. You don't understand what i want.
(How much do u understand what u urself want?)
4. Our characters dun match.
(And realising this only after so many years??)
5. Your dad is a crazy gambler and i can't stand him!
(R you in love with me or my daddy?)
6. Your mum doesn't like me.
(There must be sometg wrong wif u then~Try improving urself!)
7. I can't STAND your super bo liao friends!
(SO it's my fault that i have these friends lah! I can't stand ur SUPER VAIN plus NO BRAINS galfriends either!)
8. We have different tastes in life.
(SO??? Tell me.....Who on this earth are born similar??)
9. You are always so clumsy, so messy and so impatient with me!
(Gaga... Who's born PERFECT by the way! LoOk in the mirror urself! You aren't FANTASTIC either!)
10. I've NO more feelings for u.
(...............................................................)
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And so .......
the list just goes on and on.

Instead of improving on this relationship that doesn't come easy in the very 1st place,
all they know is to find faults with one another....
Accumulated grievances......
And someday as the volcano FINALLY erupts,
all we could hear was:

"He doesn't see where the REAL problem lies!"

OR

"She's not being understanding enough!"

~DUH~

As time passes by, we forgot the basic elements that kept us going in the beginning.

We became discontented.
We picked little flaws that deepens our discontentment.
We became stingy in showing our love.
We lost the motivation.
We forgot the beautiful times spent together.
We focused on the imperfections and enlarged the differences.
We overlooked LITTLE compliments that could make a BIG difference.

Try noting down the good and bad points
of ur partner on a piece of paper and asked urself:

Have you been focusing too much on his/her bad points lately?
Are you willing to give him time to improve on his bad points and accept him as who he is?

My friend is still trying to find a way out to see where their relationship is heading.
but i can say.....
Some people could never understand or accept where their r/s went wrong.
It takes two hands to clap,
and someday,
the other party might just be too tired to tolerate the nonsenses.

i sincerely wish them all the best.
and ...
hope all couples out there,
treasure what you already have.
and,
remain lovey dovey! =)

An Advanced Happy Valentine's Day to all of U!

for two people in love,

everyday is a Valentine's day.

(^_________________,^)

2006-02-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么，已经很久很久，没有在这里写下自己的感想。

从前那个爱做梦的女生，仿佛从人间蒸发。

请你们不要误会，
我只是暂时离开。

是时候停止爱做梦的习惯了吧？

好好地去想一想眼前的路应该怎样走完。
这，也许叫“成长的代价”。

纵使不喜欢，
眼前的路，
还很长呢。

突然很怀念从前小时候，可以很任性地说“不！我不要！”
然后，
哭着躲进妈妈的怀里。
那个任性地拒绝别人的快乐，是多么的自私，而又不会受到任何不愉快的谴责。

我们容易对小孩子宽容，却无法以同样的方式对待“大人”。

小孩子，即使面对一切恶言恶语，过了5秒就能忘记。

大人的记忆，却比较牢。
不是记性吧？

应该称之为：放不下。

从前的日子过得比较简单，因为思想也相对的简单。

又是谁，
让我们的思想变得复杂？

2006-01-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

How much .......

just how much weight can you put on a girl's shoulders?

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HOD (1.20pm in the office) :

"hey, can you go on my behalf for a meeting this afternoon at 2.30pm?"

WAT!

Firstly, i onLy have approximately 1hr to prepare for the meeting. And believe me, this ISN'T just any simple meeting!

Secondly, this was a HOD meeting, not a meeting i SHOULD be attending. Not even on his behalf.

Thirdly, doing all those administrative last minute stuffs for him despite all the lessons i have to rush to was ENOUGH to handle.

DON'T BULLY ME ANYMORE!

*************************

(Going hOme with already an heavy heart , i called him)

Halfway into the conversation..........

Him: "Love is to forgive and forget, to compromise...."

Me(already hearing it over n over again):"Give me time?"

Him:"Yes, i am giving you time. But nobody is perfect.......love is flawed........"

Me (weary) : "Ok.... i will talk to you another time."

All of a sudden, my shoUlders just felt even heavier.

Who ....

who would understand and give me a comforting pat on the shoulders at this point of time?

That's all i ever needed.

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HOME

Me:"Mum, i'm not having dinner tonight. I've noo appetite."

MUM:"YAR, u are always not having appetite for anything that i cooked. Always spending time with your friends out there, wasting money and treating this house like a hotel."

Me(tears welling up):"Yes,i'm detestable ain't i? I'm not a good staff,not a good gf, neither a good daughter."

MUM:"Yar, you are like a flirt lah, going into a r/s then breaking up.Flirtuous girl.People at work hurt you then you come home and vent it on me."

.
.
.
.

When did i ever did all that?
Who will understand that kind of pain?

The deepest pain in the world, is NOT to be misunderstood by the world, but the thought that those closest to you, just failed to understand what you're going through...

*wat a wonderful year 2006 to begin with*

ha.

2006-01-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

It has been a long long time since i have bLogged.

a long ... long ... long time.

these days, there have been lots of changes going on in my life.

i felt like a princess living in dreamland.

lots of happiness. touched. deeply cared for. deeply treasured.

what more could i ask for?

i could be the envy of most gers in the world.

it was the first time in life, that i wanted to be with someone.

i never had the courage to accept a person into my life.

he was .......... yes, the first.

we have been through quite alot together. quality, not quantity.

from the bustop where he told me words that deeply touched me,
to the sidewalk, where he first held my hands.

if only two people in love, could just be blinded by nothing, nothing but love.

if only time could give me an answer.

i wish to be quiet once more.

quiet.........

pls dun ask me any questions. pls dun ask me why why why.

pls dun disturb me.

i'm feeling terrible enough.

thanks for all of your understanding.

i will get up.

i hope i will get up.

2006-01-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

the day where the magic begins . . .

it all happens on 3rd November 2004 where someone dropped me a message in friendster.
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we chatted for five months. it was a mixture of sweetness pLus a high level of uncertainty.
i wasn't sure if this person whom i have been chatting with was sincere enough.
i wasn't sure if Richard was his real name.
i tried to get answers but failed.
He was away in Bangkok.
When he returned, i juz chose to close all contacts with him.
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months passed. . . .

On 10th December 2005 during a common friend's wedding dinner, we finally met.

it was our 1st meeting.

our 1st meeting after so long.

me(thinking):
"he muz have hated me for not messaging him again"

he thought
"hmm..she was the one who stopped contacting me. if i was to go over and say hi, wat if she juz turn away and walk off?"

The bride knowing it, pulled me over to shake hands with him.

me: "hello! remember me?"
he: "yar~ hello i'm richard"
me(pai seh): "hi"

*conversation ended*

Assuming that he wont want to contact me ever again,
i was SURPRISED! when i saw his frenster mail the next day.

*grinz*

and . . .

the magic begins =)

***********************************

Sometimes, u juz can't believe it.

it seems, that fate has already pathed the road for you.

if i refused to walk over n say "hi" & break the ice tat night~ he will still tink that i'm disgusted with him, and things won't happen from there.

we lost contact for a whole 7 months.
Yet,
the feeling as if u have known this person for a long long time didn't change..
not at all.

And without a trip to JB together, without seeing how much he cared for me while i was heavily sick with fever and flu...

i won't know

or,

i might never caMe to realise...

that someone in this world,

exist because you existed.

we're thankful that fate has decided to grant us a 2nd chance to cherish each other even more than ever before

and

i'm feeling thankful that i've finally found you =)

i don't know what lies ahead of us.

but this time,

i'm suddenly not afraid.

***********

this entry, i dedicate it to you.

the one,

closest to my heart =)

12/01/06 where all the magic begins and let's pray
it never ends...

2006-01-11T16:24:00.000+08:00

Our JB adventure!

i love this pic!

frenz for 10 years...

been through so much together

and our frenship is still going strong!

3 cheers!

for the first time,

my face lOoks smaller than his!

haha~

shufen's itchy hand sticking out in between.

Oops!

cOupLes do love a little wrestLing at times,

don't they?

keke

bOught this bag & purse for Mama's 59th bday!

she loves dem! wOhOo!

Happy Birthday mama!

Jack Daniel's tee for myself!=)

doggie wanted tee for jOseph!

hOpe he likes it.

Okie he MUST like it Okay??

at least we stiLL rem him in JB!

keke

Brought them to Taman Sentosa for seafOod!

As usual,

the crayfish was YUMMY!

We ordered Sambal lala,

you tiao,sambal squid,crayfish,butter prawns,beggar chicken,sambal kang kong and hotplate toufu.

and

guess hOw much it all costs?

only RM100 plus!

wOO!

SUPER CHEAP!

SUPER HAO CHI!

Our sUper BIG glasses of sugarcane juice.

this is only the regular size for your info.

ho ho ho!

You shld see the UPSIZED one!

YEAH!

WE CONQUERED ALL THE FOOD in less than 30mins!

YIPPIE!

*satisfied grin*

HAPPY!

triangular relationship?

nah~

juz disturbing the lovely couple.

keke ^^,

heading for la kOpi session

@ Secret Recipe @ City Square.

my first phOto taken with kenny!=)

King Kong + T-Rek

Haha life's never bOring with these two arOund!

leaving beautiful memories

before we headed back to Spore!>.<

2006-01-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

我想，这一辈子的我，

也许永远都会对一个人感到亏欠。

亏欠，不晓得是不是正确的用词？

也许，

觉得自己自私得有一点卑鄙吧。

自私？

也不晓得是不是对的。

其实当你感到痛苦的时候，我也并不一定快乐。

其实当你还在思索为什么为什么的时候，

我早已解脱。

有些感觉一旦过去，就已经成为历史。

纵使，

那是一段如此美好的曾经。

但，

过去的，迟早会过去。

曾经很盼望过什么，曾经很在乎过什么，

终究，也属于曾经。

只要曾经美丽，

那已经是最美好的收获。

我还是会在某个夜晚，

想起我们一同有过的回忆。

还是会的。

但，

也就如阅读一段别人的故事一样，

已经不再荡起任何的涟漪。

曾经的，

就把它留在回忆里吧。

2006-01-07T12:52:00.000+08:00

What do i want?

I started asking myself this question over n over again recently.

Go with yOur feelings~

A soft tiny voice pOpped out somewhere in my head.

no, that's not enough.
i ain't a risk-taker.
i wana be extremely 100% sure.
i hope we are not rushing into a decision.
and perhaps,
regretting it later.

Another part of me answered.

if he's not willing to wait dat little bit of time for you,
this shall only prove,
how much he likes u.
how sincere is he.

and that's what i tink.

hope u understand.
and if you do,
give me a nod.=)

2006-01-07T12:19:00.000+08:00

You cannot stop someone from having a

wrong opinion of you

but

you can stop him or her,

from being right about it.

^^ Cheerios EveryOne! ^^

2006-01-02T14:44:00.000+08:00

=*= my loveLy 2006 =*=

part II

dinner @ cocoa

yesh~ mama warns me NOT to put chopsticks into my mouth

keke but i stiLL can't kick da habit! =X

we love steamboat! ^^

at esplanade countdown...

lOok at all the foams on their hairs!

it's REALI disgusting to smELL >.<

but

it's actuaLLy quite fun! =)

Happy NEW year!

@ esplanade before 12am strikes

seriously!

it's the 1st time i saw shufen smiLing so happily in a picture!

kaka

the very whitey us!

anticipating the new year together=)

Someone ya ya kept saying he lOoks VERY tall here lor...

keke accept it~

it's the camera angle la.hehe.

kept trying to disturb shufen whiLe she's chOosing her songs!

keke

Singing! i love ktv! wOohOo!

the EXTREMELY "zi lian" uncLe keke

lOok at shufen's buay sOng face!!

haha =P

Our smOky faces! keke

This is better!

keke the gOod ger & the beng boy

2006-01-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

+*+ the last day of 2005

the beginning of 2006 +*+

+*+ lovely fireworks

lovely 2006 +*+

i was there to witness it !

*grinz*

snapping a shot before 2005 ends.

for the first time,

my face lOoks alot smaller.

keke taken @ taka 2005

tried taking whiLe on escalator

*failed*

harboring a "never gif up" spirit,

we toOk it again! yesh! haha~

our fav neoprint ^^

nice right? keke

our dinner @ cocoa restaurant!

the fOod was SO fresh can?

haha~ tho shufen complaint it was alittle ex.

Okie la,

i dun mind paying alittle bit more for gOod fOod!

witness the beautiful fireworks when 12a.m. strikes.

lasted for abt 9mins

(Nice things dun have to last for tOo long!keke)

it was a fantastic sight!

Minus all the spraying of foam into our hair and faces,

the nite will be PERFECT.keke.

went ktv after that!

will upload the pics we tOok in ktv asap. Oops! hehe.

sang until 4am then went to eat roti prata near nus.

my mushroOm prata dat i didn't manage to conquer.

Was tOo lazy to munch! haha~

Uncle Richard conquered the prata in less than 2 minutes.

Wonder wonder!

haha~

my 2006 began beautifully with me sleeping @ 7am in the morning! haha

*mighty panda me*

all the best people!

celebrating the born of a new year.

2005-12-31T13:29:00.000+08:00

Work ........ Work ........... Work!

1st sObs* :

Dec hOlidays cOming to an end sOooon!!!!!
sEriously speaking, i haven't played enough .
With all the meetings and plannings to be made,
i didn't rest much either.
haven't gOne on a trip.
NOt energized.
nOt lOoking forward to 2006 hectic wOrklOad.
*definitely NO NO*
To sum it all up,
i'm ageing faster than i actually shOuld!!!
Ahhh!!!!!!!
Wrinkles!!!!!
EyeBags!!!!!!!!
Dark Circles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ShOo shOo go away.
dun disturb my 23 yeArs of yOuth.
eeekks!!!!!!

2nd Sobs* :

next year will be a year FULL of responsibilities!!!
Telling a fOllower to leaD a grOup of sheeps is
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!!
it's not that i dun haf the confidence to lead,
but .............
i'm so new!
pLus pLus!
i've a leader above me that's 100 times
WORST
than me!

Pushes all the workload to me.
mmm...Ok, bear with it.
Ask him 10 questions,he gave me 20 "dunno" replies.
忍。。。。
THE MOST COMMON SENTENCE HE USED:
"if necessary, don't disturb me.
You guys settle among yurselves first."

WAT IS THIS MAN!!!!
if settling among ourselves is THAT easy,
we won't need a leader !!!!
and won't that makes him soO soO REDUNDANT??

*GRRRRrrrrr..........*

he's so bLUr that all the SOTONGS in the world
will be ashamed of him lor!!

sighz*

i can foresee the coming year will be sOOO full of

UNKNOWNS,
CHALLENGES
&
a whole lot of work piling up.

HOW EXCITING ISN'T IT!
2006 is sO lovely!

To have an Ultimate Sotong leading us
small fishes to die in the same ocean.

Wow~

1 more day to New Year and i ALREADY "CANNOT" WAIT.

*CALLING OUT*

Any SponsOrs for SKII wrinkle cream??

Or

Sponsors for sOme de-stressing spa therapy??

juz let me whine for a minute and i will be fine~
*winkz*

HAPPY 2006 TO ALL OF U!

2005-12-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

也许，
除了你之外，再也不会有第二个人，
对我如此之好了。

还是会的。

还是会想起你。

leann rimes "Please Remember"

Time, Sometimes time just slips away
And you left with yesterday
left with the memories
I, I always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me

Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget, so don' t forget
the memories we made
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me

Please remember, our time together
the time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
Good-bye, there's just no sadder word to say
and it' s sad to walk away
with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
and remember, please remember me
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
Please remember
Our time together
the time was yours and mine
and we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
And how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
I had you and you had me
Please remember, Please remember

2005-12-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

Still remember my CURLS?
*
*
*
*
it lasted less than a week ................

it was hard to manage...

it's SUPERBLY dry~ Have u ever seen hay?

My mOma hates it ...... To the MAX

It makes me lOok Old

I consider it over several sLeepless Nights

I surveyed 10 pple... Out of the 10, half of them asked me to keep it,saying that i lOok Okay.

bUt you noe....

Okay wasn't acceptable!!! No No No....

SO....

On a bright Wednesday afternOon,

i went to make it straight again!!

~determined lOok~
*keke*

Transformation ........................

progress ...........................

*~Ta dAH~!*

SO.......

Which one do u prefer?

*grinz* ^_________^<

2005-12-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

Sushi Mania~ Again~

Shufen hiding behind me~
KNOW WHY??
She claims that this will make her face lOok smaller
AND ... making my face BIGGER...
*slaps forehead in disgust*

The Soft shell crab was SO-SO lah~
BUT!!
I still like~ keke~

fRied Vegetables~ A MUST HAVE!!
it consists of ALL the veges u can think of...
Nah~
Ok Ok i'm juz lazy to type ALL the names out...
*Oops* =P

CUTE!! ^^

Dun need to introduce liao~~~

My ALL-TIME FAVOURITE!!!

*GRINZ*

Think Shufen is JUZ TOO HUNGRY.

she kept on emphasizing that my earrings lOok like 4 dangling chilli padis !!! *Oh my*

Cute earrings turning into food for her.

*pats* you muz be reaLLie hungry for days. *sighz*=P

Yeah!! We finished ALL the fOod!!

No food wastage!!

An achievement for a small eater like me~ ^^

2005-12-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

Updates On my JB trip !!!

Things i've seen on this trip~

Kat pOinted these HUGE donuts to me at Starbucks!!!!
LoOking soOO yummydelicious isn't it!!
YUm yUmz ~
The gian-est Part is
*
*
They OnLi cOst a freaKing RM$3.90 EACH!!!! *dRoOLz*

MAD SHOPPING SPREE!!
Out of these Paper Bags, at least 6 bags belonged to the guys!
they are crazier shOpperhOlics than us can....
Kakaka~
LOve Hongyao's Adidas sHoes~ WoOo!
TOO Bad didn't tk a pic of it. =(

SEAFOOD @ Taman Sentosa!!!!!!!!!!!
The Black Pepper Crayfish was FANTASTIC
ChiLi Crab was pretty LOUSY
Fried You Tiao with Mayo simPLY Unforgettable
And....
The lala is SOOOO NICE you'LL want MORE!!!

**See? Mingli is so touched that he cried and busily drying his foggy glasses. kaka**

YES!!!
Your eyes aren't pLaying tricks.
THE SUGARCANE JUICE IS HUGE!!!
AWWW.....
Reminding me of BK LARGE SIZE COKE

Regular SUGARCANE JUICE
VS
LARGE SUGARCANE JUICE
**mmm...they serve the size of your drink with regards to hOw tall u are?**
~evil grinz~

The pic will be PERFECT without Henry trying to play a fOol.
keke~
*henry lOoks like a hamster here!!!*

DURIANS!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOO!!!
The BEST dessert after a heavenly dinner~
Kakaka~
*Imagining Kat's screw-up face when she sees this*

Our EXTREMELY contented faces
Hey....
The durians COST RM$56 Okey...
Most EX durians i've ever eaten!!!
Die die Oso muz enjOy...
*geez*

Yeah!!! WE survived the JB TRIP!!!
IT WAS SOOO FUN CAN???
keke~
*MISSING THE SEAFOOD already* =)

ps/ Bundle of thankies to Kat for the pics!!=)

2005-12-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

说真的，这几天对我来说，很累。
突然，
老了十年。
也许，你不明白。
也许，你会认为，我是一个任性的孩子。
也许，你会恨我吧。
也许，也许你不会再出现了。

我也很痛苦。
真的，很痛。
只是，
爱情不止是两个人之间的事。
它，
同样需要很多人很多人的祝福。
一段不被众人祝福的恋爱，
是不会快乐的吧？

那一夜，
我把它当成是一场美丽的梦。
一场，
看似真实，却遥不可及的梦。
也许，
我爱作梦。
也许，
我们之间的年龄差距太大。
也许，
你的好让我好害怕。
也许，
一切都发生得太快。
也许，
你最后还是会找到一个比我好很多的女孩。
也许，
就如你曾说的，圣诞老人，根本不存在。

就把我当成是一个爱情逃兵吧。
只是，
你给我的回忆是最美好的。
只是，
你是那个对的人，
却在错的时候，遇上了错的人。

忘记吧。
对我，对你，
都已经是最好的安排。
也许，吧。

《忽然之间》

忽然之间天昏地暗
世界可能忽然什么都没有
我想起了你再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候怀念你

我明白太放不开你的爱太熟悉你的关怀
分不开想你算是安慰还是悲哀
而现在就算时針都停摆
就算生命像尘埃分不开
我们也许反而更相信爱

如果这天地最终都会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆
没有你

2005-12-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

很多时候，我像一个任性的孩子，总是让别人为我的事操心。。。

看到他们为我而心烦，我也会内疚得不知所措。。。。

有时候，我也只是简单地希望得到众人的祝福，
只是，
快乐似乎离我，还有一段很遥远的距离。。。。

所以，我一直不停地进出迷宫，
希望，最后能找得着出口，
一条，通往幸福的道路。。。。

后来我想通了。。。
幸福原来是一种自然而然产生的感觉。。。。
你不需要特别地在意是否能够得到幸福。
幸福来临时，
根本躲不开。
而现在的我，虽然还未获得幸福，
但是，
我希望，
总有一天能够欢天喜地地迎接幸福的到来。。。
希望那一天，
终究会来。。。=）

2005-12-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

Still remember my straight hair ???
The one that stays with me for 23 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh... i'm getting sentimental!
hIak hIakz

But!

it lacks volume.....

&

i'm getting tired of straight hair ...

SO.......

+
+
+
+
+

i MADE UP MY MIND to curl my hair !!!!!

WoOohOo!

^_____________<^

Look at the steam whOoshing out from all places!!!
I felt like my head is burning!!!!
BUT!
I still managed to squeeze out a smiLe for the Camera!
Say Cheeeeze! =)

i felt like a mad scientist here...

Finishing soon ...........

Btw this is the kind lady who attended to my hair for 5 FREAKING hours!!!
She's very nice! kept on asking "is it too hot?" "are u tired?" blah blah...
5 hrs will be so boring without her & of cos my dearest Ah lin!!^^,)

AS i was in a hurry to meet Cyber Santa cum Mr. ET (Kaka) , i didn't take a pic of myself immediately!!!

To compensate, i tOok quite alot whiLe i was in Sakae Sushi.

YESH!! SUSHI!!!

Again~

*sticks out tongue* =P

ME!! U can't see my curls as it
blended in with the color of my tank top!

Alittle clearer of hOw my curls lOok like.....
And YESH!!
I'm acting cute cos i dun wan to lOok too matured in my curls!!!
*Fighting for the rights to act cute*
kakaka

And...*drumz rolling*

*
*
*
*

*ta~Dah!*

introducing the long waited Virtual Santa!!

Mr. Dimples,Mr. Santa,Mr. Busy....etc

& me!

And!!!

the pic below is in actual fact a piece of art

*
*
*

~*Tadah!*~

classic!

The results of typing too long with juz ONE finger!!

hahaha~ Oops~

and so the day ends with a beautiful note,

being happie , relaxed & chatted alot with a ....

*new,yet not so new* fren?

kakaka

~enjoy the weekends everyone!*~ =)

2005-12-16T11:06:00.000+08:00

i need a cup of good latte to wake me up!

off ~ to curl my hair !!

^______________________^

Happy day everyone!

2005-12-15T15:37:00.000+08:00

我想你的时候
你会不会也刚好
正在想我

从今以后，我只要看色彩斑斓的天空。

从此以后，我只要拍下最光滑、美丽的云彩。

从此，

我的生命里不要再有黑、灰、蓝，

而是一种晶莹剔透的五颜六色。

你也看到了吧？

我，正快乐地迈步走向未来。

2005-12-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

一个阳光普照的星期天下午。。。。

SF: hey, 我发现自己爱上了别人。

ME: HUH? 是谁？你不是已经有 XXX 了吗？

SF: 可是我开始觉得他很厌烦。。。

ME: 那你要怎么做？你们好不容易才走到这里leh...

SF: Please lor...这是什么年代liao? 你以为还有天长地久izzit.

ME: ............

SF: 现在的人，如果合不来就分开lor.没有什么大不了的。

ME: .......................................................

SF: 是你太落伍了啦。Please update yourself can？

*****Conversation ended******

The next day~

ME: 男人是不是都把女人当成是衣服？想丢就丢。

Guy fren: 不一定啦。。要看那件衣服合不合身咯。

ME: 如何知道合不合身？

Guy fren: 就是感觉啊。有些衣服很好看，穿起来却太紧了，很不舒服。
有些衣服普普通通，却可以穿很久，越穿越有感情。

ME: 可是有一天，当它发黄、弄脏了，就会开始嫌弃它了吧？

Guy fren: 那要看你有没有好好的保养咯。有可能越脏越有味道。haha...

Guy fren: Ok lah,说真的。
不是每件东西发黄了就要丢。
时间久了，就已经不是看表面，而是谈感情。
妈妈老了，你会把她丢掉吗?
重要的，不是时间或是岁月，而是彼此之间的感情是否还存在。
只要感情还在，就能够包容彼此的缺点。
甚至，只看到它的美。

ME: Hmm...... *点头*i will write it in my blog!
*豁然开朗*

Guy fren: haha... 说了那么多，现在。。。。。

ME: 什么？

Guy fren: Call me XXX THE GREAT!! Wahaha!!

ME: ................................

*好几只乌鸦刚刚飞过，冷气变得更冷*

你还愿意相信爱情吗？

爱情是什么？天长地久又有多长久？

爱情，原来是一种迷信。

你信就有，

不信？

它就不曾存在过。=）

2005-12-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

A story about an Overdose of Salmon Sashimi ............................

*Evidence*

OF COS i didn't finish all the plates alone!!!
I'm NOT so li hai!! hahaa~
But i contributed 5plates!!
Dat'z already an Achievement!!
*Proud of myself* a~hem. geez!

I love chawanmushi!
Hahaaz~ Is that the right way to spell it??
Hmm.............
WATEVER!
Hen hao chi !!! *thumbs-up* ^^p

While waiting for our darling food to be served....
Been waiting for like 20mins n still NO FOOD......

ME & JOSEPH decided to take some pictures!! WooHoO!!
*Okey lah actually he's kinda forced... Kakaka*

Firstly .........

The Ultimate Guai Guai Look!
We are Kind Citizens!!

He lOoks farnie with the specs!!
But!!
mm..Still passable!!
* with a very mian qiang lOok*
kakaka

HMMM... WHERE'S OUR FOOD???????????
We're hungry ....... Hungry ...........

We are so hungry.............
So hungry till...........

I feel like eating Joseph!!!!
Slurpz!!!
Wahahahaha~

No lah.... I'm actually a gOod girl !!!
Believe me!!!
LoOk at my guai-est smile!! Wahaha~
To Joseph:
Hey get ur finger off my face!!
Grrrr............

Joseph : GROSS.......
Say urself guai... Hao er xin...

Me : Geez....^^

SO wat's the morale of eating TOO much Sashimi and posing for too many pictures??

************I'M SICK!!**************

SOBS!

2005-12-13T14:27:00.000+08:00

Perhaps .... Love.
如果。爱

很喜欢这个电影名称。
因为觉得很浪漫，所以跑去看。

开场时，温柔的钢琴声响起，
我仿佛知道，
这会是一部伤感的电影。

坐在漆黑的电影院里，
我目不转睛地凝望着荧幕上的林见栋。
他的眼神里，有一股力量。
我，仿佛看见了自己的影子。
仿佛，在看着自己的爱情故事，慢慢地搬演着。
震撼。

不要看着我走。不要再记得这段日子。
最爱你的人，
永远是你自己。

每次都是女人首先离开。
男人这次，却选择首先出走。
只是，
他仍然无法忘怀。
听到女人磨牙的声音，
他开始心痛。
他以为自己可以报复一段被背叛的爱。

我没有想过自己会爱上一个连我自己都鄙视的人。

我把卡带都带走，因为我知道，以后再也不会说这样的话了。

他不希望，
每一次在睡梦中都必须再伤心一次，
失去她一次。
所以，
久久不愿睡去。
只能，
不停地在水里徘徊，徘徊。。。
借以麻痹伤痛。

那时你需要一个导演，
我需要一个伴。。。。
在一起那么多年，
大家都要多了。

自我要求过高的导演，一个渴望不停往上攀的女演员。
早已分不清，
是不是爱。

你一直都爱着我就这样吧不要回答

因为你是爱我的。。。。

也许。。。你是爱我的

越来越不肯定的语气，唱出了患得患失的心情。
印象很深刻。

一直不多话，一直很冷酷。
歌声，
却由最初的澎湃，
恢复至平静的《如果。爱》。

从钟楼远远地凝望着自己曾经心爱的女人，
他微笑地慢慢往下坠。

“放手吧。。。放开我吧。”

看着秋千来回不停地回荡，
仿佛象征了心中的挣扎。

终于，他以最柔和的方式，
释放了别人，释放了自己。

再一次回到那曾经熟悉的地方，
回温逝去的美好，
只是，
人事已非。

看见从前那个笑得灿烂的面容，
而如今，
却早已是不一样的脸孔。

她疲惫地揽着曾经深爱的男人，
她以为，
最后还有他。

男人，却反而自由了。

最后一幕，她流着泪，
看着窗外飘落纷纷的雪花，
感慨曾经拥有却不晓得珍惜的爱，
那一幕，
我也哭了。

一切仿佛如昨，
却也是回不去的美好。

最后几幕，看着金城武哭着打电话给周迅，
告诉她，
他要走了。
知道，他依然爱着她，
只是，
那份爱，早已经不一样了。

戏演完了吗？
该。。。演完了。
该。。。演完了。
他若有所思地重复。

带着浅浅的微笑，
他终于在风雪中阔步离开。
镜头在他的脸上停了很久，
那个笑容，我久久无法忘怀。
是一种，
发自内心的自在。
他，
也终于自由了。

只有放下，
人才会变得豁达。
纵使，那曾是一段多么刻骨铭心的爱。

每个人的一生都是一部电影，是自己的主角。
但，有时只是一个配角，
或者，
早已经被人剪掉了。
无论现在的你是别人的主角或只是一个小配角，
曾经拥有的，
不必逼着自己去抹杀掉。
总有一天，
你会学习放下。
如林见栋一样，
昂首阔步地离开一段，纠缠10年的爱。

perhaps... love.

张学友 -- 《如果。爱》

每个人都想明白
谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱
特别在午夜醒来
更是会感慨
心动埋怨还有不能释怀
都是因为你触碰了爱

如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那么明白
困惑的心流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待

如果这就是爱
如果你当时明白
后来的生命里是快乐还是悲哀
特别在夜深人静时想起未来
是否能平静不会想现在
只是因为你拥有了爱

2005-12-13T13:41:00.000+08:00

《暧昧》

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣想太多
是我还是你我很不服气
也开始怀疑眼前的人
是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

2005-12-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

CUTEZ!!!!

Wishing you in your busy life

*
*
*
*
time for relaxation

GOOD SLEEP

Good Health with Exercise

Someone To Dance With!

.... ABIT of Adventure

Most of all....

GOOD LOOKS

And...

the comforts of real love

BUT

MOST IMPORTANTLY...

WATCH OUT FOR THE NAUGHTY PENGUINS!

kaka

hAVe a Greaty gOod day! ^^

2005-12-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

有时我很幼稚。

有时，

我很不懂事。

更多时候，

我喜欢和你斗嘴的方式。

偶尔，

喜欢看你沉思的表情，

若有所思。

从前，

更享受看你喝咖啡的姿势。

回想，

你为了我奔跑流汗的傻气。

原来，

你曾经那么深爱着我。

戏演完了吗？

该演完了。

该，

演完了。

谢谢你曾用心地守护着我，

我

不会忘记。

2005-12-13T12:01:00.000+08:00

读了你寄来的email ，心是暖暖的。。。
好像，你的叮咛就在耳边不停地环绕着。

突然觉得，
有你像哥哥般的照顾，
已经足够。=)

2005-12-12T03:55:00.000+08:00

Boon Teck:
“我在乎曾经拥有，更珍惜天长地久。”

你同意吗？
曾经拥有的，无论经过时间多少的洗涤，
仍然鲜活美丽如昨，
而天长地久，
则是每个人心中一块美丽的净土。

Marcus:
“与其渴望天长地久，不如更加倍地珍惜曾经拥有的。
因为，
你不晓得几时会有失去的可能，
更不知道，
哪一天你最爱的人会离你而去。”

听了这一番话，
我被深深地打动了。

我们总是忽略了现在，而把未来塑造得太美丽。

曾经有对结了婚的夫妇，深深地爱着彼此。
他们，
也一定曾经渴望能够一辈子不分离吧？
男人却在最美好的时刻，
心脏病爆发。
去世之前，他送了一支手表给妻子，背面刻着：
“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。”
他，
应该是抱着一段美丽的回忆，而离开的吧？
自从他的离去，
妻子不再相信天长地久。
如果仍然相信，
那肯定会是，双倍的痛苦。
因为，
已经不可能天长地久。
因为，
他不可能再回来。
她可以选择每天靠着泪水，纪念一段美好的过往，
但，她没有。
曾经用心珍惜，曾经好好地爱了一场，
曾经最美，
那，
便已经是天长地久。

也许，
失去也是天长地久的一种。
因为，
再也不可能有第二个人，可以替代他曾带给你的快乐。
珍惜，
也可以是天长地久的。
因为，
当他还存在时，你深深地爱过他。
你们之间的回忆，
将每日每夜地陪伴你入睡，让你更坚强一些。
即使，
他早已不存在。

你渴望天长地久，或是曾经拥有？
人一定会贪心地渴望，两者都有。
只是，
天长地久对我而言，也许太遥远了一些。
如果，
可以曾经拥有，现在把握，未来再一块走到咽下最后一口气，
那，
也许是最踏实、最美好的承诺。
因为我知道，
你曾经、现在以及一直到了最后，
都存在，
从未离开。

2005-12-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING PART I

It was a freaking 4a.m. in the morning ......
Went to bed @ 12a.m the previous night...
AND I DIDN'T SLEEP A WINK!! OH NO!!

Goody Ah bao helping us with our hair business....
We suggested she shld quit teaching and open a hair salon!!
Or do part-time!! We'll definitely be her 1st customers!!!
dUn pLay pLay Okey!!
She's PROFESSIONAL!! ^^

While they were busily doing their hair...
I quickly changed into my tube dress!!
Love this dress!! wOohoo!!
*Bought from Sugarlink n it's exclusive!!
Tat means~ there won't be another dress with the same design n size!!*
*grinning*

Hair Ready!!! Awww... I LOVE CURLS!!!!!
Thanks to Ah bao for her great masterpiece!!!
for once in my life, i feLT Pretty!!
HOHOHO!! *Kexin giving u the Hao lian lOok* ^^,

A clearer pic of my waves!!!! wOooHoO!!!
I LOOKED SO WHITE!!!
See my swollen eyes!!! Evidence of SERIOUS lack of sLeep!!!
AHHHH!!!

The 4 hungry ghosts were toO hungry!!!
So we ordered Mac Breakfast before we headed out !!!
WARNING: Never ordered Mac Breakfast tOo earlie!!
1) IT CAME one and a half hours later thO promised it will come in an hr.
2)The eggs were all burnt!!! Ahhh!!! We even found egg shells in the big breakfast. KAKA
what a sumptious "added flavour" breakfast!!!

Bride getting ready to meet the groom!

*TADAH~* Nicely make-up and ready to go!

The wedding car!!!

Later we attended the church wedding in the afternoon...
1st time i attended a church wedding!!!!

Tho i wasn't a catholic nor christian,
i suddenly felt calm and at peace with myself as i stepped into the church!!

Nice ang bao boxes personally made by Chujie!!!

Ahhh!!! Stupid me forgot to take pics of the wedding couples exchanging vows n rings!!
How stupid is stupid!!
Tears were rolling in my eyes as they stepped into the church!!
It was soOoo BEAUTIFUL!!
BUT!! To compensate my stupidity, i tOok a pic with the handsome bridegroom!!
It was the 1st time i saw Marcus so stunningly HANDSOME!
OOPS! No Marcus has always been handsome!!
BUt!! He's EXTREMELY handsome yesterday!!
Hahaha~

The BEAUTIFUL BRIDE!!! aLL brides are the most beautiful women on earth!!

THE jie-meis!! Ah Bao , me & Chujie!!

Ah bao, Min & Chujie!

The beautiful gers!!! Mmm... LOOKING ALIKE??

Me & Min

LOVEY DOVEY!! Looks like some ROM pics har?? haha~

And!!! We headed over to fullerton hOtel for pics taking!!
i love that place!!! Esp the Spore River view was so NICE!!
AND another plus point was...........
The weather was fantastic too!!!! YooHoo!!!!

Heading over to fullerton hotel! wOoO!
A narcassistic me busily taking pics!!

TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR WORDS...........

Love is in the air!! ~ Marcus & Cindy

Later, we headed back hOme n i tOok more pics of myself in curls!!
WOhOO!! cOs it's onLie temporary and will be washed off very sOon!!
Got to take more!!

TO BE CONTINUED.............................

2005-12-09T14:11:00.000+08:00

女人刚刚和交往两个月的男友分手。
对她而言，
那是一个痛苦的抉择。
男人是她等了25年的初恋，
她以为，
他们可以天长地久地在一起。
男人，
却首先放弃。

在困难的面前，男人选择了逃避。
他能为情人做的，
只有那么少。
在女人最需要依靠时，他缺席了。
他永远也无法理解，
女人为何如此紧张这一段情。
因为，
在他的心里，只住着一个人。
那个人，
是他自己。

女人生气地说，她要变得比现在还要美丽。
她，
要让男人悔不当初。
所有的后悔，所有的不甘心，
也只是因为，
她无法放下对他的情。
会有那么一天，
她不会再如此咬牙切齿。
会有那么一天，
她会忘记自己曾经想报复。
一切，
也许只是时间的问题。
时间，
能够让我们看清一些事，
更能够让一段深情渐渐退色。
我们会渐渐忘记自己，
曾经如此在乎一个人。
当有一天回想起时，我们会笑着感激，
是他，
让我们学会了什么是受伤，什么是站起来。
什么是珍惜，而什么，又叫做失去。

朋友，
你会慢慢地忘记，慢慢让自己痊愈。
一个一直在你生命中缺席的人，
并不值得。
你应该庆幸，
自己失去了一个，不值得你去爱的人。

2005-12-07T12:53:00.000+08:00

Let Peace & Love Prevails All!

Thanks Mr. Santa

*wiNkz*

For hearing my whispers tho u overslept!

2005-12-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

*Drummms rOlling...................*

The Mickey Mouse Handphone!!!!! It's simpLy beautiful!!

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it comes perfectly in a pretty mickey mouse box!

lOok at the camera! It's in Mickey mOuse shape!

wOooO....

..........

love the keypad!

it's so unique!

awww......

i love it!!

wahaha......

i'm already dreaming of it.

hmmm

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btw it's currently sold in all Singtel OUTLETS!

Grab it nOw!!

AS FOR ME?

I sincerely hOpe Santa could hear my wishes and drop me a surprise this Xmas!

Wahaha~

HO!

*hanging up my socks high high*

from someone who refused to grow up ^^

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2005-12-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

在你的眼中，怎样才算是“完美的时刻”？

A perfect moment is . . .

一起躺在沙滩上，什么也不做。什么也不说。
享受着阳光，享受这宁静的一刻。
有你在身旁，真的，没有什么事情好担心。

无论多辛苦，你也愿意为我而做。
即使是多么细微的事情，即使我不曾开过口，
你也能够明白我要的，是什么。
一切都值得，只要，我开心。。。。。

下着雨的傍晚，
你愿意用身体为我挡雨。。。。
那一刻，
我祈求这场雨能够一直继续下个不停。。。

我说我想到树上睡一睡，
你愿意做我的树熊，看着我安心地，慢慢睡去。。。
是我最美好的守护天使，
是那个，愿意背着我爬树的好树熊。。。。 =）

你愿意放弃温暖的阳光，陪着爱看雪的我，
一同欣赏那美丽的初雪时分。。。
虽然很冷，心，却是暖暖的。。。^^

2005-12-05T15:32:00.000+08:00

TO: Mr. Dimples (yOu noe who u are! *winKz*)

This is for you!

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friendster doesn't allow me to send this to you~

so i shall send it to you over here! ^^

Love is belief~

SO keep on believing! *grinz*

Zhu ni xing fu

2005-12-05T13:19:00.000+08:00

i was in Minds Cafe @ Selegie last Friday!!!

In case u dunnoe what is Minds Cafe,
it's a nice place where there are lots of board games available!!
You can eat, play and scream all you want at the same time!!
Cosy place~
yOu'll get hOoked!! Trust Me!!

**Aww.. Minds Cafe can consider making me their blog spokeperson!!!**
A*hem
hahahaz~~

Look at the shelves of games available!!!

The Blackmail game which we tot is was fun...........
BUT!!
YaWnnzz~~~
Turned out to be a rather bOring game..
So we ended halfway! *bLehz*

A very serious Huan lin playing the Mastermind game!!
She claims that she NEVER won the game before,
but that night....
SHE WON!! YOOoOhOoo!!
SEE GER!! yOu can do it !! ^^

The new game!!! Samurai game!!! It's REALI fun!!
Rather strategic game~ But i'm hOoked to the game!!
Huanlin too!! tOo bad we onLi played once.
Hmmm...Mysterious hands...Guess whose hands is that?
Wahaha~

Huanlin shrieks, " it's my henry's hands!!!"
Wahaha~

hMmm..... Somehow....
This lOoks like an illegal gambling den!!!!!!!
Wahaha~ The boys playing "whO's the boss" game.

And of course!!! The night won't be complete without the narcassistic us!!!
WoOhoO!!

2005-12-03T16:58:00.000+08:00

人生，总是充满着无限的遗憾。
也许，
因为有了这些遗憾，我们的生命才能够更圆满。
也许，
因为有过遗憾，所以更害怕失去。
已经失去了这么多，
其实，
也没有什么不能再失去。
除了生命，
除了家人，
除了自己很爱的人，
其实，
什么都能够放弃。
一切不能放弃的借口，都只是无聊的理由。

曾经爱过，没有好好地珍惜，没关系。
你会慢慢学会更珍惜下一段情。
曾经受伤了，以为再也爬不起。
没关系。
还有更爱你，也更值得你爱的人，
在等候你。
曾经流的泪水，你以为没人能够明白。
其实，那只是时间的问题。
总有一天，一个不舍得让你流泪的人会更加疼爱你。
因为你的痛，
他/她一定能明白。

两个对的人如果能够在对的时候相爱，
那是世间上最美好的安排。
只是，
上天总是要让我们先受一些磨难，
再让我们尝到幸福的美好。
必须经历90%的酸，
才能体会10%甜的完美滋味。

你能够找到一个真心爱你的人的。
我也是。
希望有一天遇见了那个命中注定的人，
我们都不会再错过。

我，正在慢慢地让自己相信。
it's not easy.
but ,
i believe =)

2005-11-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

不被了解的我，总是轻易地被人误解。
也许是不善于表达，也许，是我粗心大意。
也许。也许。
真的，不想再听见也许。

我把头深深地低下去。
我很累。
不要求全世界相信我，
只要现在，现在。。。
有那么一个人告诉我：“我相信你。”
就足够。

我站在窗前，发出求救的讯号。
你收到了吗？
我已经疲惫得不能再站起来。
你能够做我的双腿，
给我依靠吗？

但，讯号一发出，听到的，却只有空洞的回音。

你不在。
根本从未存在。

我的心很痛。真的很痛。
受伤了。累了。想逃避。想去旅行。想哭。
而在这一刻，能够陪伴在我身边的，又有谁？

突然，
只能哭得更厉害。

原来，
始终没有一个人愿意相信。
没有人。

《你不在》

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此微弱的十分
不过渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我并吞

你不在当我最需要爱
你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难捱

你不在高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在不在

时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人份你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对我不得不承认

你不在当我最需要爱
你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难捱

你不在高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来但
你不在

那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在
爱已不在不在

你不在当我最需要爱
你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱

你不在高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱

你不在当我需要你的爱
你不在

2005-11-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

i was NEVER a rock song fan~

BUT!

I LOVE THIS SONG!

Queen " i was born to love you"

the title is just soOoOo romantic!

i was born to love you~ and indeed~

years later~ we met and realised 。。。

i was born to love you~

WoOohOo!

it's a very cold night .... may this song warms ur heart...
knowing that somewhere somehow,
someone was born to love you. =)

I was born to love you (love you...)
With every single beat of my heart
Yes I was born to take care of you
Every single day (single day...) All right...
Hey, heyI was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
Yes I was born to take care of you
every single day of my life
You are the one for me I am the man for you
You were made for me you're my ecstasy
If I was given every opportunity I'd kill for your love
So take a chance with me let me romance with you
I'm caught in a dream and my dreams come true
It's so hard to believe this is happening to me
An amazing feeling coming through

I was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
Yes I was born to take care of you (honey)
every single day of my life
I wanna love you, I love every little thing about you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
(Born) to love you, (born) to love you,
yes (Born) I was born to love you(Born) to love you,
(born) to love you, every single day of my life

I was born to take care of you every single day, day, day of my life
An amazing feeling coming through
I was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart
Yeah I was born to take care of you every single day of my life
Yes, I was born to love you
Every single day...of my life
I love you baby
Yeah, born to love you
Yes I was born to love you
Hey, I wanna love you, love you, love youI wanna love you

Yeah, yeah... Aha it's magicI get so lonely, lonely, lonely yeah
I wanna love you... It's magic
Love you yeah, give it to me

2005-11-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

Memories~

26/11/2005 ..............

After a very deprived moment in schoOl,

we are FINALLY on our way to town!

WoOhOo! ^^

Our very kind hod drove us all the way there~

it's so RARE to see him so gentlemanly! Haa~

Huan lin & Me decided to rest our tired feet in NYDC!

The one near Hereen!

I love that place INSTANTLY!

GoOd for people-watching, gOod fOod, gOod ambience,

everything is NICE~ =)

*The OnLy turn-off is==> POOR SERVICE!*

all the waitresses there will make u feel as if~

u owed them a million bucks yet to return.

Gosh! *Slaps forehead*

Ordered this Iced Strawberry Something!

*pai-seh~ The name is juz tOO lOng to be remembered!*

It's way toO milky for me~

diluted . . .

not much of a strawberry taste . . .

But

i'll forgive it~!!!

COS

it's made from REAL strawberries!! ^^

hoOhOOhOo!

She claims this is a super nan kan pic!

But seriously~

i think it lOoks nice!

Cos

i like it when pple lOoks natural!

Somehow~

i seriously tink you are chao ji swee char bor.

haaa~

i love to people-watch while i eat!

U can SEE all sorts of things on the streets~

Couples snuggling together when it's raining . . .

Hao pa pa carrying his son on the back . . .

Crazy youngsters shouting she's gona get married . . .

Girl trying to hold her bf's hand while he shakes her off . . .

Cutey ah-mor babies . . .

Wat u wana see~

yOu get wat u wana see!

*Ultimately K-P-O Me*

Okey~ dat's juz curiosity Can?

i LOVE the X'mas theme this year~

As if Spore has turned into a Fairytale Castle!

MY DREAM~

For the 1st time,

i can sense the warmth of the season here.

It's juz SimpLy Beautiful . . .

LOVE IT!

2005-11-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

我的初恋，发生在一次偶然的时机。
毫无防备地，
我们参与着彼此的生命。
你总是喜欢唱歌给我听，
听我说一些无聊的故事，
我们一起哼着童年的歌曲，一起幻想着天长地久的可能性。
还记得，
你最喜欢michael learns to rock的
"out of the blue"。
因为你喜欢，
所以，我也经常跟着唱。
因为你喜欢的东西，
我都会更加努力地珍惜。

第一次和你看日出，
我累得撑不下去，
你说没关系，你会用眼睛帮我记一记。
当时，
我安心地睡在你怀里。
那一刻，
我的确希望太阳迟一些升起。

第一次和你手牵着手，
是在我差点跌倒时，你及时握住我的手，
从那天开始，
我都喜欢这样牵着你的手。
大大的手心，
很温暖。很感动。

初恋，我们憧憬着永远。
突然，年岁缩短了好几年。
以为，人生就是这样：
恋爱、结婚，然后一起死去。
永远，却总是相当遥远。

我们，都无法忘记初恋。
也许，早已忘了他的脸，
却仍然记得，
那片断的美好回忆。
曾经拥有一些什么，
这已经是对方送给自己最好的礼物。
朋友，
你还年轻，也许，有更多美好的恋情，
不要再为了一段逝去的爱而耿耿于怀，
我们都要慢慢学会，
如何更好地爱自己。

总有一天，
也许，是很多年后的今天，
你也会像我一样，
在下着雨的夜，好好地想念着简单的从前。
即使，
你早已忘了他是谁。 =）

2005-11-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

The various factors urging me to break my bond & QUIT! :

when i'm doing all the things, and NOBODY appreciates!!
when wOrk keeps coming in and i got ONLY 2 HAnds!!
when i tried my best in something & someone commented dat i can do MUCH BETTER
when i dun even have the appetite to eat dinner
when i am too bottled up n there's no1 who bothered to understand

The various factors asking me to STAY:

when i recalled my cuties screaming:"lin lao shi, i want u next year!" **=,)
when i realised that i could withstand all the pressures n finish my work ^^,)
when i noe that i have done my best & finally some1 appreciates =)
when i've wonderful colleagues who are always encouraging me! ^_^)
when i haf a wonderful McDonalds' Breakfast before the day starts =)

AND Last but not least...............

When i received heart-warming *gifts* like

this

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And, you noe you got a friend somewhere out there

thanks for every little thing =)

2005-11-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

《下一次微笑》

上一次微笑之后

世界遗漏了什么

怎么会突然忘了许多感动

难过的事总有好多头顶的天空总是灰濛濛

流泪的时候却忘了为什么

淡红色指头陪我煎熬黑夜破晓

在嘴边咬了又咬我好想忘掉为何烦恼

对着天空大声的叫

下次微笑你会看到我真心上扬的嘴角

有人会在天涯海角种一片草原看我奔跑

下次微笑我会骄傲放晴的感觉多么好

不放弃总会等得到我那熬过风暴

真的微笑

我那熬过风暴……

真的微笑

2005-11-24T19:37:00.000+08:00

踩着脚下的云彩，悼念着一段已逝的爱。。

看见人群中一个熟悉的身影，却没有勇气上前叫住你。
请原谅我，那颗，想忘了你的决心。

走进黑夜，寂寞渐渐透明。
闭上双眼，静静地感觉一种温柔的凄美。
我的心正在下着雪，就快度不过寒冷的冬夜。
但，又有谁能了解？

走在神秘的树林里，享受这一刻的宁静。
远远地，月光照耀着我受伤的脸庞。
那是一道看不见的伤疤，我以为自己，
已经隐藏得很好。

世上是否有一种神秘的魔法，
能够带走一切悲伤，将所有寂寞的身影，
统统聚集一起？
一起吟咏着悲伤的歌曲，治疗着，心中一切的恐惧。

你可以是自己生命的画家。
可以选择绚丽的色彩，更可以涂鸦黑色的光影。
没有对与错，只有做或不做。
快乐，不快乐，
其实只是霎那间的抉择。

坐在窗沿，明白一切已成为过往的曾经。
学会放下，
也许就是对自己宽容。
我还在学习如何慢慢地在地上爬，总有一日，
我会站起来。
你能够等到那一天的到来吗？
我们在阳光下快乐地拥抱。=）

2005-11-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

Went to my Ah-gu's Birthday Celebration @ Plaza Hotel yesterday!!
The Laksa is Superbly gOod!! Yummie!!

Let me shOw you all the S*inful Carbos i consumed in 1 nite.....
Note: Just 1 Night and u will wake up the next day feeling.....

FAT~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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*ta-dah~*!

*BOOM* LAKSA!! YUM YUM!!

They claim it's Medium Rare Steak... But i doubt So!

Okie, here are the other things i've eaten & drank that night!!

The red wine was FABULOUS!! Waha~And i broke RECORD!!

1st time drinking wine without getting drunk!! woOhOO!!

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i finished the WHOLE glass OKIE!!! Wat an achievement!!!

Wahaaha~

Sashimi!! Haha 1st time i've eaten octopus raw.

Okie Call me Sua ku!

But But!

I STILL LOVE SALMON SASHIMI THE MOST!!

HOW LOYAL!! =)

Besides these, i also ate Durian Prata, Chocolate Prata, Soft Shell Crab,tempura &&&& nice Crunchy Potato Wedges!!!! WoOohOo!!!!

tHo it's REALI sinful , but who cares!!!! ^^

And here are my cutie cousins & nephews!!! Yeah!!! I love my 2 nephews!! They are just so adorable lor!!! Maciam walking out from the cartoon world!! Hahaha~

*Ta-da!* Introducing......................

Heng Heng my beloved nephew!!

Aww... he's so *hiao* lor...

i say he got dimples then he kept showing us his dimples!!!

haha!! I can imagine him turning into a da shuai ge 10yrs later~

Carrying on droOling gers!! But!! SHOO!!

HE'S MINE! Wahaha~

Xiang Xiang!! Heng Heng's little Brother!!!

This little baby is bubbling wif lots of ENERGY man!!!

10 times he nearly knocked down the waiter carrying plates!!

*Heart Skipping One Beat*

Xiang Xiang happily showing me his new Spiderman Watch

With that Super *Hao-Lian* Face!!

Hmpf! Never Mind! I got Hello Kitty!

See who wins who! Wahaha~

Heng Heng managed to pester his mama to play *aeroplane chess* wif him.

He's always carrying lots of games with him!!!!!

aND i wonder how he kept all in his small Spiderman Bag...

My 2 Cuties!!! =)

Angels among the Many Angels!!!

*The Younger Generation*

Wahaha~

Before i end this entry, i want to COMPLAIN abt the ULTRA-WU LIAO course i attended today!!! !!! Let me get this off my chest!!!

the course started from 10am and ended at 10.30pm. We were supposed to leave @ 10pm but they juz drag on lor!! So sian!
The pple in charge dun allow us to go toilet, drink water, be late, and we must even OFF our handphone!!! Vibrating Mode isn't even allowed!!! We can't leave that building and even haf lunchboxes for lunch & dinner INSIDE the building!! SUPER CONFINEMENT!!
That Place is SUPER DUPER ULU lor !!! Tho it's @ Bt Merah and i lived not very far from that place, i HAVE NEVER HEARD BEFORE where is that location lor!! *GRRR*....
We weren't allowed to give alternative views after listening to the speaker and if we TRY to voice out our own views on some matters, we will be BLACKLISTED!!! And the speaker claims that there's some "PUNISHMENT" lor!!!!!!! AHHH!!!! Help!!!!!
WORST: The speaker says no1 is to be late or else he will be Angry. But he's late himself!! How do u spell F-A-I-R-N-E-S-S man!
And lastly which i thot was the Stupid-est thing is: The sch actually paid $800 for individual's course fee!!!!!!!! *SLAPS forehead in ultimate disgust*

Luckily i had a Wonderful night on Sunday and thus, i allowed myself to be tortured on Monday.

BUT!!!!!!

Tomoro the course is still on... And it's from 10am - 10pm!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!

*totally disgusted, unmotivated, super sianz* mode.

Life still goes on! Got to catch some sleep! And PRAY that i won't dream of that gross speaker and wake up screaming like a siao lang!!!!!! I want peace!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

你说过，我像一阵风，
一不留神，
便从你的指尖轻轻地飞走。

我说，你像漂流着的海水，
不曾为谁停留，
只是一直仓惶地漂流着，
谁也不能让你片刻逗留。

朋友说，我为何一直一个人，
在这残酷的世间里飘泊。
应该找一个安全的臂弯，好好地停靠。
在他们的眼里，
我似乎能够轻而一举地找到幸福，
只是，要求过高。

我说，不是我要或不要，只是，
缘分未到。
要求并不高，只要他对我好。
只是，
不想因为寂寞而随便找一找。
仍然渴望，只是不再期盼过高。

他说，会陪我度过一百个冬天，
我心中的冰雪，
总有那么一天，被一股热情给化解。
即使走到世间的哪一个角落，
也一定会找得到我。
他要我，不要再逃脱。

我说，不要浪费时间在错的人身上。
甜言蜜语对我而言，毫无意义。
一百个冬天，
应该与珍惜你的人一起度过。
我们的冬天，是下在两个不一样的世界。
谢谢他愿意给我一股暖流，
陪我度过许多寒冷的夜。
只是，
不要再等候。

她说，我必须学习自私，
必须学会对自己好一些。
不再为了不重要的人伤怀，
也不必为了早已不存在的人感伤。
她不明白，为什么一定要活在过去。
不明白为什么，
我走不出阴霾。

我说，你曾否努力地聆听，
我的心里，
有一把微弱的声音。
在每一个笑容底下，
也隐藏着一滴不可见人的泪水。
如果可以选择快乐，
我会努力地让自己快乐。
我在努力地活得更好，
只是，我想你明白，
曾经的美好，不可能一时洗刷得掉。
时间，
会让我慢慢成长。
也许，我会在对的时间遇见对的人。
不要再操心了，我的朋友。

胜利，往往是再努力一下的坚持。
一定，
我一定能够战胜悲伤的孤独，
翱翔到快乐的领土。
一定，要学会爱自己，
再好好地去爱人。
总有一天，我会好起来。
真心期盼那一天的到来。

2005-11-20T08:23:00.000+08:00

记得你曾经说过，
如果有一天我们在雨天分手，
你一定会在下着雨的季节里，
思念着我。
虽然只是一种无聊的玩笑话，
我却当真的一样。
是我太傻了吧？
竟然还是会在寂静的夜晚思念着你。
即使，
你已经离我很远了。
即使，
我们已经不可能再在一起。

昨晚梦见了你，醒来的时候，
竟然发现自己在流泪。
原来，我还是会流泪。
以为已经忘记，
原来自己从没有真正努力。
也许，你是这个世界上，
唯一让我想尽全力去爱的人。
努力地保护你。
努力地以为，我们会有一个完美的结局。

第一次跑到遥远的韩国，就是为了想要把你忘记。
那个地方，
有着我的思念，也纪念了这一段刻骨铭心的爱。
你现在在哪里？
也许，
已经把我给忘记。
这个圣诞，璀璨的烟火，
我也只能自己度过。
原来，孤独也是一种美。
它会唤起你许许多多的美好回忆。

离开了你，我发现自己还懂得怎么笑。
只是，
那个笑容，不再一样。

2005-11-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

Despite our deprived lifestyles, we still managed to SQUEEZE alittle bit of time & come out for dinner cum la kOpi session!!!

And! i muz say Huan lin was SUPER wei da......
Her meeting ended @ 6.30pm BUT she still rush down to Orchard n meet us!!
PLUS!!
She got splitting headache after 6 hrs of meeting wif our HOD .
That was like~ Awww........HL milk u are so sweet.......^^
*kexin in Gan Dong Mode* =)

At Cafe Cartel Cineleisure....

Hungry Us waiting to be served~
WE WANT FOOD!!

Huan Lin in Cartoon Mode ^^

The perfect "shu nu" （淑女） pose

My dinner!!!! Grilled chicken in Texas Sauce**
Heavenly~~
LoOKing gross in this pic, but i CAN tell u......
Chop Chop gurantee dat it's SO GOOD.....
YOU will lick ur lips a hundred times to savour the sauce TOTALLY....
Wahaha~

Yeeting & her Meat Lovers' Special.......
We were SO AMAZED she could finished EVERYTHING!!!
EVERY PIECES OF MEAT!!!
AHHH!!! i tot i'm the Only Meat Lover in the world~haa~
I was so hungry dat i couldn't tk a proper pic of her & food!!!

Huan lin was complaining how ugly she loOked in phOtos of herself~
So! I tOok over her hp and toOk pics for her!!
She likes this photo!! i like it too!! ^^
She's juz SO ultra-ly pretty LOR!!

*Contented face* after dinner =)

I noe i lOok somehOw idiotic in this pic!!! But NVM!!
It's like this after a heavy dinner!!!
*Stone-ing mOde* wahaha~
And!!
i LIKE that Orangey effect!!! SOo nice!!!

After the dinner ................ GUESS wat we did?

NEO-STICKERS!!!!!!! Wahaha~ ^^,)p

Do we loOk like i'm taking pic wif Huan lin n
Yeeting juz bArge in ............ With a victory sign??
Ahhh Watever~haa~
WOO!! And Mama says i lOok like korean in this pic!!
A KOREAN!! *Shuang*~~

That light shining in the forest is so NICE!!

BUT!!! EERIE!! What is Yeeting lOoking at???????WAhaha~

OKay there were two more neostickers~ BUT !

For some reasons, i can't upload it here!!

*pekz*

BUT!! This blog entry is to show u guys..........

THat no matter how busy u are... How many meetings u need to attend....How many rubbish people u met today.........How much stress u endure....There's ALWAYS a time for u to COme out, relax & hang out wif great company!!

SO.....................................................

GO OUT WIF ME!!!

Waahaha~

~*Dun hesitate! Call 1900-Ms.Evelyn for bOoking now*~

First Come First Serve basis!!! wahaha~^^

2005-11-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

hey guys!!!

i noe my previous blog MISLEADED you all.....

My hOls are NOT HERE yet !!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes!!! i still have to report to school everyday @ 8a.m. in the morning
till like 3-4pm in the afternoon !!! Or maybe even later!!!!

*note* it's EVERYDAY!!! Except saturdays n sundays!!

Awww.........

Okie ... lemme describe my timetable to u next week.....

Next Monday: 10am- 10pm course @ some ulu place

Next Tuesday:10am- 10pm course @ same ulu place

Next Wed:10am- 5pm @ the SAME ulu place

Next Thurs: Report to sch @ 8am. Till........... 5pm?6pm?7PM? NITEMARE...

Next Friday:Report @ 8a.m. too! Dunnoe when i can go home.......

BUT!!!!!!!!!

The good news is

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I am still available to go gai gai after office hours!!!!!!!!

Wahaha~ Call me out for a la kopi session,movies, anything!!

Just dun want spent my "so-called" holidays stuck in school!!!

Arrrrggghhhhhhh............................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!

aND i wana go sing ktv!!!!

Find me one motivational activity next week!!!

Just anything and i will be happie & contented!! ReaLie!!!

Best Regards,
*from an ultra-deprived lao shi who juz wishes to go out!*

2005-11-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of schoOL!

It's just so amazing how those kids who usually make
my blOOd boils are actually the ONES who i can't bear to part with!!!!

Naughty Boy A: 老师，明年你会教我们吗？

Me *surprised look* : mm... 可能不会leh.

Naughty Boy B: huhhhhhhhhh.....我要林老师！！

Me ** eyes wide wide ** : 没关系！你们可以到office找我。=）

Naughty Boy B: 不要，我喜欢林老师教我们。

Me *choking back tears* : 我也喜欢教你们！

虽然说的时候有点口是心非。。。。。。
但我真的对这群“魔鬼”又爱又恨！！！
所有的舍不得，只是为了终究要舍得。
我爱他们！

NOW....

It's time for their “庐山真面目” to be revealed！！！
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*ta-dah!*

the four "kings" who almost sent me to asylum~

his teeth ain't naturally like that. he juz wana act rabbit. hehe

NEVER judge a bOOk by it's cover.

White & Black

my WORST nightmare!!
From his look u can agar agar guess hOw terrifying he is.
haha yet, he's oso the one i can't bear to part with the mOSt.
我是不是很犯贱？？
haha 男人不坏~女人不爱？？？
*duhz*................................................
he's actually quite sweet at times lah.... =)

NOW............

It's time to see the ANGELS!!!!!!!

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*ta-dah~

The prettiest boy!!
I can foresee he's another girl-killer in future...
hahaa....*thumbs-up*

My pet~ haa~ Male-killer in the future!!!!

Very pretty fringe!!! Hahaha~ I had a fringe like that... Once.

The Prezzies i bought for them!!

Forever frenz clip

incredibles keychain ...... they go gar-gar over it!

Throwing a class party!!! they love it!!! =)

it has been a long 4months & 16 days being with these cute little devils.
reallie can't bear to see them leaving the class n going to other classes.
Hopefully we shall meet again!
一切的别离是为了再一次相遇。
And for now....
Lemee enjoy the long waited break!!! Yippie!!!

2005-11-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

Cindy dear~
Happy Belated Birthday!!

Last saturday , we went to an ultra "ulu" jap restaurant near Orchard Cuppage!
Wahaha~ It was REALLIE ulu lor...
We climbed up flights of stairs....
Walked through buildings after buildings...
Landed on a totally "foreign" residential area in Orchard...

And FINALLY!

WE REACHED!

Wahaha~ It was indeed an achievement...
For the sake of good sashimi and 正中 jap food, we DON'T mind walking that distance!
~ 为了吃，不顾一切。 Sounds desperate uh! ^^hahahaz

Okie enough tOking... Here are the Pictures of the nite!

make a wish~ make a wish! look @ the miniature bday cake we bought for her! Cute rightz~ geez~*

YEAH!! *开心果*

LOOK!!!! My favourite sashimi!!!!!! *DroOlz*....
From left : Mr. Salmon, Mdm Swordfish & Miss Tuna and lastly...
~Not Shown clearly~ Mdm Cuttlefish!!
wOooOo!!!!!!!!
i must be a cat in disguise.... *Meow~*! ^^

TEMPURA!!!!!!!!! Gosh~ the prawns tempura was......
*可欣给你一个满足的神情* 。。。
一切尽在不言中!!!! Wahaha~

给我一个满足的神情吧~~~~~~~
hahaha eat till too full liao~ Baolin==> The camera sensitive one!!

The guys too busy eating.... Guess who's the other camera- sensitive one!!!!
Wahaha~

LOOK AT CHUJIE'S CONTENTED LOOK!!!!!
wahaha~ Contented till no eyes to see

Capturing that special moment spent together!
Look!!!! We are sitting on the floor!!!
this jap restaurant is REALIE 正中 Okay!!!!!!
hahaha......
1st time Ms. Sua Ku came into a zheng zhong jap restaurant,
so muz *hao lian* abit... Pls forgive me!!!!!!!
Wahahaha~

Next !!! The J Bar @ the M Hotel!!!
It's actually quite nice.
There's a live band playing in the background
*but he sings alittle lan & loud*
wahaha~ But overall quite a good place to chill out and relax!!!
Lots of noisy ah-mors though... Abit turn-off!!
But ~ I can't drink @ all......
LOUSY me....... Tried a few sips of my frenz' drinks and........
*FAINTZ*
I drank coke in the pub!!!! Can u believe it.
hahaha *Slaps forehead* there wasn't any mocktails available.
CAN U BELIEVE IT~

OVERALL,
it was another unforgettable night spent!!!
Went home @ 1 plus and it was tiring but fulfilling.
Adding another page to my beautiful memory!!!!!!!!! ^^

2005-11-13T12:59:00.000+08:00

凌晨1点30分，回家的路程。
累了，却不舍得闭上双眼。
原来，
黑夜的景色，也有另一番美。
一种属于宁静的美。
只可惜，
又是一个看不见星星的夜。
路上车子匆匆飞驰而过，
谁又会为谁停留？
赶紧将手机拿起，
好想拍下这一夜的美好。
可惜，朦胧一片。
快，快用眼睛记下。
眼睛，也可以是一架万能相机。
哪怕有一天我们相遇了，
你又可否愿意听我诉说一路上的风景？

一路上的景色，静悄悄地划过黑夜。
我的眼皮，早已经不听使唤地轻轻闭上。
一种安详、平和的心情静静地沉淀着。
很舒服。
真的很舒服。=）

2005-11-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

Xin's music diary:

一部日剧的经典对白：

*——*——*——*——*——*

如果注定不能让我爱你，
不能像从前一样守护着你，
那，
就把一切情感放进冰箱里吧。
冻结一切对于你的记忆，
从今而起，
我不要再看见你。

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朋友刚刚和男友分手。
这并不是他们第一次分手，
差别在于，
这一次，男人是认真的。
累了，就想放手。
也许，不想再努力。也许，不想再伤心。
女孩很思念他，天天以泪洗脸。
她后悔，为什么人在身边的时候，不曾珍惜？
她一直以为，
首先放弃的，会是自己。
也一直相信，
她的条件比他优越很多。
他，
却首先放弃了她。
头也不回的。
女人告诉我，她不能没有他。
我说，谁也可以没有谁。
不曾珍惜的，又为何要到了失去之后才来后悔莫及？
我说，女孩，你一直冷藏着自己的情感。
一直觉得，你永远是最好的。
当事实不是如此的时候，
你方才醒觉，
原来自己比想象中，还要爱他。
也许，一切还来得及。
也许，男人还爱你。
放不下的，却是自尊心。
我说，自尊心往往会摧毁一段美好的感情。
男人，
如果你不小心看到了这里，
我想告诉你，她终于学会了珍惜。
也终于明白，
你在她心中的地位，原来是如此重要。

这一首歌，献给曾经爱过的你们，不要等到了下个世纪，
才来后悔为什么从来不去争取，原本握在手中的幸福。
也许，我们都需要一个奇迹。

《让我爱你》

大s:没有起伏的情绪
因为你出现后划破平静震撼
我已紧封闭的心冰山河雪在融解

仔:回到初次的相遇
风在吹一个人独自美丽
灰的天空为何没有表情你的心相遇

大s:就让我爱你没有了自己
仔:残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引
绝对地就算生命所剩无几
合唱:只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大s:就让我爱你证明有奇迹
仔:再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你
我愿意放弃世界微笑而去
合唱:幸福很远心却在一起

大s:过去总是挥不去
仔:再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒
大s:我的泪水淌过你的天空
仔:雨下不停心好痛
风像画笔看着我你的容颜尽在风的前头
大s:我的心划出第一次的彩虹
合唱:因为你我相信

大s:就让我爱你没有了自己
仔:残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引
仔:绝对地就算生命所剩无几
合唱:只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大s:就让我爱你证明有奇迹
仔:再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你
我愿意放弃世界微笑而去
合唱:幸福很远心却在一起

大s:就让我爱你没有了自己
仔:残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引
仔:绝对地就算生命所剩无几
合唱:只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大s:就让我爱你证明有奇迹
仔:再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你
我愿意放弃世界微笑而去

合唱:下一个世纪让我爱你

2005-11-12T10:31:00.000+08:00

当我觉得活着很累的时候，我会想起。。。

站在邮轮上，第一次目睹的星空。最难忘的时刻。
走在汉城街道上的浪漫。寒风刺骨地吹，很美好。又带点伤感。
夏威夷的海滩、阳光、热情。
下一次旅行的美好。下一站该往哪里探索？
朋友的欢笑声。
蓝蓝的天空中，一朵朵飘移的白云。原来，自由就是如此。
小时候最爱吃的“白兔糖”。
每一晚，在家里等我回家的狗狗。
吃、喝、拉、撒、睡的简单，与幸福。
一大tub的冰淇淋正在等我征服它。
伤心的日子里，有个人，想尽法宝让我快乐。
加薪的日子。
不够睡眠的早晨，总有热呼呼的咖啡守护着我。
一定还有睡到饱、睡到想吐的美好日子在等着我去实现。

想到这里，突然觉得，活着原来也不是那么坏。

现在一切的辛苦，是为了往后能够拥抱更多幸福的日子。

加油！加油！加油！

不言放弃，是因为根本没有值得放弃的理由。

我是一个幸福的孩子，所以，我一定要在幸福的基础上，

让幸福不曾停止，让幸福，还有更多幸福的可能。=）

2005-11-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

站在人生的交叉点上，究竟应该向左走？向右走？

还是一直努力地退后，再退后？

冷风簌簌地吹着，原来，早已是深秋的时刻。

你到底在哪里？

不曾努力，我已放弃。

2005-11-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

you're beautiful~ james blunt

another well-waited movie that is bound to make tears flow!

i want to watch~!!!

17-11-2005

2005-11-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

我生病了~

努力强装着微笑，
虽然咳得很厉害。。。
虽然很辛苦。。。
虽然很希望有一个特别的人，能够在身旁耐心守候。。。

但，我不想不想再让别人看到，
那隐藏在背后的软弱无力。
一定要坚强。

有个人问：为什么你又生病了？
只是，我也很想好起来。
只是，我也期望有一个人可以陪在我左右。
在我生病的时候，可以带我去看医生。
可以让我忘记病痛，快乐地笑。

如果现在你生病了，又有人愿意照顾你，
愿意让你快乐，愿意在你难受的时候，陪你一起微笑，
那恭喜你。
你真的很幸运。

原来，在别人看来理所当然不过的事，
在我眼里，
却是一种。。。。。
如此遥不可及的幸福，
和快乐。

我会好起来的吧？
没关系，一定要好起来。

2005-11-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

世界最美的风景，
是在世界绕了一圈之后，才发现：
原来一直只有你，
能够让我停下脚步，看看这世界的美好。

世界最美的风景，是此刻我正在思念着你，
而你
刚好在这个时候，出现眼底。=）

世界最美的风景，是在这纷纷扬扬的世界里，
我们找到了彼此，
简简单单地爱。

世界最美的风景，是我不再习惯等待。

我们的心里都有一幅完美的图画，那是世界上绝无仅有的美丽风景，
更是我们秘密收藏的一次美丽回忆。
也许，那是你情人的深情背影，
又或者，
是一次难忘的欢笑声，不知为何地，长久留在你的记忆里，
成为你的一部分，也造就了今天不平凡的你。
也许，那是他第一次在人群中牵起了你的手，
也许，那是一辈子也要在一起的承诺。
无论那一刻是否能够天长地久，
你都会记得，
在你生命里有那么一刻，是特别的。
不会再重来的时刻，才是最美好的时刻。
我们又有几次ng的机会？
对我而言，世上最美丽的风景，是我带着你给我的回忆，
决定更坚强的活下去。=)

一首让我感动的歌曲~

5566 ~ 世界最美的风景

我心中的天气一直不放晴我眼部的眉心一直不开启
看遍的风景多么美丽
谁愿意陪着我环游世界去

我是只小麻雀却从来不犹豫有一天变美丽
没有人会相信向窗外飞去
却从来不担心
谁愿意陪着我环游世界去

你是世界上最美的风景多少晴雨风雪冰
都是我的 Memory
你是世界上最美的风景四处留下我的足迹想着你

我是颗小太阳就守在你心底冷的时候请你快躲到我怀里
我们有约定我从来没忘记
我愿意带着你环游世界去

你是只小麻雀从来不犹豫有一天变美丽只有我会相信
向窗外飞去却从来不担心
我愿意带着你环游世界去

你是世界上最美的风景多么幸运
你让我拥有你

2005-11-05T13:04:00.000+08:00

gosh~ what did he see??

was it monday? tuesday? outing wif my fav. gan di di ... before he leaves for australia for his commando training!

haa.. he's younger than me by 1 yr old.. but i'm always feeling so cared for when he's around! hmm... ~a real gentleman~ ^^

the necklace dat he bought for me for my belated bday present! and... he even put it on for me under the eyes of a zillion pple.... geez *pai seh*~!!!

the little coat he bought for my handphonie! hehe isn't it cute!! now my handphone won't *catch a cold* wif it !! =X

2005-11-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

What's your take on true love?

你对真爱的定义是什么？
以下，是我做的调查：

A: 真爱就是可以白头偕老，可以一辈子在一起也不会嫌对方恶心。

B: 真爱就是永远也不用结婚。只要能够在一起，开心就好。

C: 真爱根本不存在。只是童话故事里，用来骗小孩子的把戏。我们也曾经是受害者。对吧？

D: 真爱是。。。永远爱着他。

E: 真爱是能够包容一切，包括他的背叛。

F: 真爱是我在她的面前放屁、挖鼻孔，她还是觉得我是最帅的。

G: 真爱是她不爱我了，我愿意放她走。

H: 真爱是一股力量，能够让你突然之间找到生命的意义。

I: 真爱是，即使得不到他的爱，我还是会祝福他，希望他过得比我好。

J: 真爱是一种迷信。你相信有就有，没有就没有。

我呢？

在我的世界里，真爱是。。。

即使你的一条腿断了（不能带我一起遨游世界的每一个角落），我还是会替你推着轮椅去散步，告诉你一个秘密：只要有了你，一切已经没关系。

即使你的双眼瞎了（不能陪我一起去看世界上一切美丽的风景），我还是可以做你的眼睛，陪你看看黑暗之中的一丝光明。

即使你的双手残废（不能在寒冷的夜里抱我入睡），我还是愿意借你我的双手，安抚你，让你静静地入睡。

即使你的肚皮已经大得像一粒原子弹（不能再像以前一样英俊非凡），我还是觉得你是最性感的。

即使你的头发已经开始秃头（已经老得很邋遢），我还是会在寒冷的夜里让你靠在我的怀里，顺便替你的秃头取暖。

在这些的这些之前，我也要顺便加入多一样说明。
除非我腿残了、眼瞎了、手残废、肚皮像原子弹、也开始秃头了，
你也愿意像当初一样，
照顾我一生一世。
否则，
想得美，我才没那么笨！
哈哈！=X

2005-11-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

从前渴望遇见圣诞老人，让他帮我把愿望一一实现。
是否太贪心了一点？
仿佛还有101 个愿望还待实现。

现在，我渴望见一见别人。
我想遇见永远陪在白雪公主身旁的七个小矮人。
他们不都是矮得很有性格吗？
虽然永远也不比别人优秀，
却总是自得其乐，
总是在一起快乐地，守护着柔弱而娇美的公主。

人生之中，也常常遇见许许多多的小矮人吧？
我也是其中之一。
不，我不是说身高，是一种属于心灵的矮小。
永远也觉得自己比别人矮，比别人差。
过去的23年，我的确是这样活过来的。

最近碰到了一个比自己更没有自信的朋友，
才恍然大悟，
原来自信真的不是由别人给你的。
朋友，只能给你表面上的安慰，
自信，
却是必须靠智慧的累积，才能慢慢地散发出来。

就如一些人虽然身体有缺陷，
却能够比正常人更加勇敢的活下去，
甚至，
活得更好。
他们的经历，让他们更坚决地活下去。

我，
也想做个坚强，而又充满自信的小矮人。

不够好？
没关系！还是可以做得更好。
慢慢来，发现自己，其实也可以很可爱。

可爱的人，是值得让别人来疼爱的。
我对自己大声地说：“不要再说自己不值得被爱！”
“不要再认为自己最差！”

坚强而快乐的小矮人，
如果有一天我们不小心相遇了，
你能否顺便告诉我：王子和公主生活得好吗？他们有没有happily ever after?

真期待你的回答。=）

2005-11-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

我享受现在的生活。

就如现在，手里捧着咖啡，看着心爱的韩剧，
身边放着一盒巧克力，
脑海里，
想着一些无关紧要的事情。
看着你传来的信息，
脸上泛起了淡淡的微笑。

不再盲目地追求快乐，也不需要烦恼着一些没有答案的问题。

一种，属于幸福的快乐。
简单，而自在。=）

2005-11-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

忠于自我

有时，我会。。。

因为一首动听的曲子而伤感很久

因为喜欢一部电影的名字而跑去看电影

因为喜欢一本书的插图而买下那本书

因为发现一个人的好而感动万分

因为一部戏的感人情节而开始幻想如果自己也可以这么幸运就好

因为觉得说话不必拐弯抹角而不小心得罪了很多人

因为过于关心一个人而显得笨拙

因为过于执著而累人累己

因为别人的快乐而快乐，因为别人的悲伤而悲伤

因为看见一只流浪狗而流下伤心的泪水

因为自卑而不敢接触你的眼神

因为看清了一些事情而感到万分痛苦

因为一个人的才华而爱上他

因为不想再受到伤害而宁愿孤独终老

因为觉得还有真爱的存在，所以还在等待。

因为喜欢下雨天而埋怨艳阳天

因为想笑就大大声的笑，因为想哭而大大声的哭

因为喜欢一个人，而变得不再像自己

因为喜欢一个人，而学会了更加地疼爱自己

因为喜欢一个人，而决定，从此也不要再喜欢别人。

2005-11-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

0800a.m. in the morning...
Finally!!! *drums rolling....*
The Ultimate JB Trip!!!!

Upon Arrival!!! *Excited Mood*
know it's NO BIG DEAL, but ... but...
i'm on a holiday to somewhere at least!!
haaa.... ^-^

1ST pot of sinful-ness~ Curry Fish Head!!
But lemme tell ya~It is juz so sUper-licious!!
we juz drank all the gravy! hahaha~
A must try!! but but.... oOps!
forgot to note down it's ever famous..address.
Okie~
What comes next when u haf
filled up ur tummy? ....

SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!

doesn't dis looks like hmv heeren in spore?

next!
we went to check out the SUPER low ktv rates!
we even signed up as their member okie~
woohaha~

And then... MANICURE TIME!!
i was practically dragged into it by my fren!
i've never ever done manicure b4 for the past 23 yrs
and it's actualy quite fun!!
but~
ruined my lovely manicure 30mins after!!!!
sianz*!
looks like i'm juz not fated to see beautiful nails!
okieokie~
so next time..
i will do pedicure instead. wahaha~

and !!!
we went to this super-posh jap restaurant to haf lunch!
lOOks posh~but the price is still quite reasonable!!
3 people ate for only RM50!!!!!
Can you believe it~~~~ wahaha~~~~~

then we walked around for abt 1 hr and went to watch movie!!
at around 9plus we left for SPORE!!
feeling sticky~ smelly & poor~ haha but really happie i went on this wonderful trip!
and~ i'll definitely be going again!!
hOOray!!=)

2005-10-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

因为喜欢它的名字，所以愿意看这部电影。
“再说一次，我爱你。”
这样的电影名称，令我着迷。
以为又会边看边哭。
我没有。
只是觉得很可惜，为什么必须等到失去了才来努力争取那些早已遗失的美好？
人的天性，就是如此吧。
明明很爱一个人，却不一定懂得珍惜。
直到失去了之后，
才明白那种痛，到底到底有多痛。

一个男人，
只能一再地拖延对于妻子的承诺。
纵使，他深深地爱着妻子。
妻子，却等不到第108条诺言的实现，便在车祸中不幸死亡。

一个女人，
永远等着老公下班。她伤心、孤独、偶尔也会难过，会耍脾气，
只是，
因为爱他，所以，能够尝试谅解他。
看着她悠长的影子坐在走廊等着老公下班，
心里突然一阵酸。

另一个女人，
移植了逝世的妻子的心脏，两个原本陌生的灵魂仿佛结成一体。
男人，也固执地认为，
死去的妻子，仍然活着。
仍然活在另外一个女人的躯壳里，仿佛，从未离开。
在女人剩下的短暂岁月里，
他努力让她快乐。
努力地，补偿着对妻子失信的诺言。
只是，
谁也不可能是谁。

生前从未好好珍惜过，却只能由另外一个人来完成自己的遗憾。
何等可悲？

看了这部戏，也许震撼力不够强大，
却足以让我们更深刻地体会到，
即使工作再忙碌，
约会再多，
也只有放在心头上的那个人，永远最重要。
因为，
你不可能预知他/她几时会离去。
也许是今天，明天，又或者是，
下一秒。

看着你心爱的人，告诉他/她，你爱她吧。

不要等到失去了之后，
才遗憾万分地期待何时何月才能够再说一次，
我爱你。

movie rating: 3 1/2 stars

2005-10-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

*huan lin & me!* look at our happie faces!! cos' we r heading for the minds cafe after dat!
Wahaha~

Isn't she just too pretty!?? *guys stop drooling!*
U stand no chance cos she got henry liao! wahaha~

friends told me dat when i smile,

i look very xing fu.
SO, smile more! *cheeze*~

Minds Cafe here we come!!!!!! Wahaha~